The end is nigh...

Working weekend again - but this time it's working for us instead of school!

Saturday was my first day off after working 26 days straight... and we spend the day loading the moving truck! I was zonked by the time bedtime came around. Tonight is priming to paint. And we are priming everything we painted. Oh joy! Well - it's not too bad - except for the stupid Tattoo practice - I'm sick of bagpipes.

I also got to run away to Erin's shower today - so nice! It was nice to meet some new people (I knew nobody but her) and I got to see her new place too. As it turns out, Adam and I are going to stay with her a couple of nights this week while we're homeless.

So - green is primed. Brown is primed. Kitchen is taped. And Adam avoided a near-electrocution. All-in-all - good weekend! I can't wait for Friday though - sleep sleep sleep. Oh - and lounge. I'm not unpacking, cleaning, painting or moving. I'm having a day off.

Only 1 month and 25 days until I get married!

Feels like I'm going to eat my way through Midol today and tomorrow - and hate every minute of it.

Ick.

Feelin' good!

I'm done my first clinical placement! Wahoo! And we're loading our stuff this weekend - wahoo! And we're moving away from the STUPID Nova Scotia International Tattoo - DOUBLE WOOHOO!!!

Also - caught up to the end of Supernatural last night - it was awesome. I really think that they should leave it there - it was a good ending. Something bugged me though - the prophet was supposedly God? That doesn't make sense because Dean's necklace didn't glow around him. But whatever - it was awesome. And Death kicked some arse too!

Getting married in 1 month and 29 days! Holy crow! NOW there's stuff to do - as soon as we get through the move it will be wedding wedding wedding. So exciting!!!!!!! And we booked our honeymoon resort (going to an awesome resort in PEI that has everything).

Year 1 of 3 done for school - so pleased!

Batter up!

Wow - look at those curve balls!

There's been a few this past week and a half.

My Aunt Shirley passed, and the funeral was Monday and I couldn't go because I had to be at clinical.

Training 4 new people at work. People who do not have professional confidence (or much work experience). Nice people, but not the easiest to train.

Said good-bye to Jenn tonight. It was really hard. But then she left her purse! Silly gal... all is fine now though.

Can't got to Mike and Mindy's wedding - horrible. I wanted so much to be there.

And today is day 19 of 25 working straight. I need a break.

So - batter up! I'll battle what else the week throws, but I hope it's flowers instead of curve balls!

Worn Out

I am so very happy with my life. I love where I've ended up, and i couldn't ask for a better partner to go through it with.

But oh my! I'm so worn out. Self-induced,, as it may be. I'm pooped. Working, clinical, moving, wedding, and family affairs/news/changes. All in one month. Oy vey!

Off to sleep I go. A good slumber it will be!

Good-bye and God Bless Aunt Shirley

We found out last night that my Aunt Shirley died the night before last. The wake is on Sunday and the funeral is on Monday and I can't go to either because I have to be in clinical, and I'm not allowed to miss time. It completely sucks. I'm not sure what to say to Dad, or Maxine or anyone.

Shirley was the first aunt (Dad's sister) to pass. I guess it will start happening more and more now that we're at that age. I guess it's the circle of life or some crap like that. Their generation is getting older, just like we are.

Yes. I guess life is changing.

Life, it is a-changin'.

In fact, a lot of things are changing. The last few months have seen a large transition in my life. There are some things I've considered doing but haven't been able to (for various reasons), but I'm starting to feel like I'm ready. Ready to get ready for what comes next, and allow myself to let go of whatever needs to be left behind in the transition.

For example, I'm ready to let go of some stuff. When we move (oh yeah - we're moving BTW) I don't want to take everything with me. We have too much stuff, and I'm ready to let go of some of that dead weight. If it doesn't have a place of its own in the new place, I don't want it.

And guilt. That's been done before....way too much.

And the need to please. I've been told about that one by my friends way too much.

And the need to help. Why do I always have to be the person who needs to help the people I know. And it doesn't even have to be something big or important, but it is just stuff I don't have the energy for.

I don't know what brought on the sudden need to change things. Maybe it's getting married (in 2 months and 16 days!!!!) or maybe it's the change in career, or the fast-approaching , but whatever it is, I think it's been coming for awhile.

Oh yeah - and I need to start standing up for myself more. With everyone. I waste too much energy dealing with people in my head - I need to do something more that will give me some piece of mind. I'm not sure if people even realize how they talk to me, or how they treat me. But when I notice, I get upset, and then have to talk to Adam until I feel better, and it's just to much pressure.

And hey - I put enough pressure on myself. You know, with working fulltime, school, learning to care for people in school (very taxing BTW), planning a wedding, being a good fiancé/sister/friend/daughter/DIL/SIL/aunt, moving, and oh yeah - trying to find a spare few hours every so often for me. Yeah... that pressure.

But heck - I love having goals, and things to acheive in my life. I' m glad I'm not stuck in a rut, like I was a few years ago. I'm happy with the choices I've made, and the schedule I've set up. Sometimes, when I'm telling people that I don't have a spare weekend until September, it's because I'm bragging while they think I'm complaining (okay - a little complaint in the brag, but you get the picture). I love my life. I just have be okay with letting my choices take hold.

And oh yeah - I'm getting married in 77 days!

Hey all!

So Adam brought up a good point this morning - I shouldn't let my last entry be about going in for surgery - it looks dire. So here you go!

I'm not sure if I'm done blogging, but for right now I don't have anything I want to share with the world at large.

So here you go - another post for the interim. It's been grand, it's been fun. I'll let you know if I decide to go on.

Bye!