Hello everyone! I'm sorry I haven't updated in a little while!

First of all - Maren, I love you. This hug is for you. -------->

So not all that much is new with me. I managed to get out to the family house for Christmas, which was awesome. I only stayed one night though. It was good to see my mom and dad, I miss them. And I met Kory's new girlfriend and her kids, Taylor and Danna. Very cute!

I'm starting to feel better, overall. My energy is coming back up, and my pain level has drastically decreased (thank goodness!). The dizziness is coming in spells now, instead of being constant, which is also good. Let me tell you.... I have never been more grateful for good health as I have been after the last 4 months. What a hellish 4 months.

And in this 4 months, you'd think I would have dropped some major poundage, right? Wrong. Argh. First with the needed to eat things like meats, potatoes and rice to let me ulcer heal, not having energy to move, and now not being able to.... argh.

Although! (yes an although with an exclamation point) A few days ago I went for a 10 minute walk on the treadmill. It felt great! And then I was pooped, but still... it's a start! And after all the heavy and rich foods that have been around for the last couple of weeks, I am really starting to feel it even more. So starting yesterday, it's on! The eating has been cleaned up, and it feels pretty good.

So I have a couple of food tips for you!

The other day I created my own marinade for fish, in an effort to like it (healthy choices, blah blah blah). And it turned out to be absolutely amazing. So I will share! (note - we used fresh haddock from Pete's Fruitique)

Mix Together: extra virgin olive oil, lemon juice, lime zest, brown sugar, onion powder, garlic powder and coriander (you will need quite a bit of olive oil and lemon juice). We allowed it marinate for 48 hours (flipping at the 24 hour mark). I'm pretty sure it wouldn't need to soak that long, but... wow! It was so amazing!

Also, I made my own taco salad tonight, and yummy! I mixed together my veggies, and then simmered the chicken with taco seasoning, and crushed a small hand full of whole grain tortilla chips. And here's the switch - instead of any type of dressing/salsa/sour cream, I used Activia's plain yogurt. It was really good. It really is a wonderful substitute for all things creamy. I highly recommend!

And Adam....Adam is great. As always. I love him dearly, and can't wait to see him later tonight. We visited his mom the other day, and played Skip Bo, as partners. Holy crap was it fun! I want to do it again! lol

Anyway -

XOXO

~ P

And the Dr. is in......

So Adam and I went to see the neurologist today, and now we have answers.... sort of.

He started by telling me everything he was concerned about it being, but that it's not: cancer, MS, etc. Then he said he wants to be sure it's not sarcoidosis, so they are going to do a blood test... but likely not. he's pretty sure have recurrent Bell's Palsy. In about 10 % of cases, people get it recurrently, much like one would continuously get cold sores. They are both caused by a Herpes Virus (see info site http://www.bellspalsy.ws/cause.htm). He said that with my ulcer and my body being so ill this fall, my immune system was down and that would allow the virus to 'wake up'. he was concerned that they don't seem to know what caused my ulcer.... that's a problem for another day though!

So there you have it... that's what it is. There's no preventative treatment. Nothing can be done to "fix" it, although normally at the onset a dose of steriods is given,w hich I didn't get this time. But given my ulcer, the doc said they would likely not have given it to me (lesser of two hours).

So there you have it.........

Sabrina is coming to get me tomorrow morning and taking me home. I am hoping to be back in town Christmas night, and then be able to have my Christmas with Adam.

So, to anyone who is reading this... Merry Christmas!

4th Monthiversary

Happy 4th Monthiversary Adam!

I love you!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you!
I love you!

XO♥XO♥
XO♥XO♥
XO♥XO♥
XO♥XO♥
XO♥XO♥
XO♥XO♥
XO♥XO♥
XO♥XO♥


Hehe - okay!

So Adam is out buying my Xmas present, and i just can't see what is wrong with wanting a massage therapist on call 24/365! Jeesh! It's not like I want much..... hehehe

I love you Mr. Webber....

That's all I have to say today! Announcing to the world that I am in love with the man of my dreams!

XOXO
~P

Impending Snow Day

Well it's beginning to look a lot like Christmas..... every where I ....... uh.... read the news. lol

Adam and I have buckled into his place for the night, so we can avoid the impending snowstorm and keep Kia someplace warm and dry. They are calling for approx. 30 cms, although i suspect that will be more inland than the city, but just in case, we'll bundle up! Homemade pizza and movies (well, downloaded movies, not the homemade kind - geez you sick people!)

Did you know that Jennifer Garner (who i think rocks!) was 33 when she had her first child? And now she's 37 having her second. I think that is pretty cool. There are so many people the make me feel old for not having settled down yet; I think it's nice to hear of someone else who wasn't married and with child at 28. Feels good for my ego!

By the way - of all celebrity kids, I think hers is the cutest (and that includes the Jolie-Pitts, believe it or not).

So.... Summit Entertainment (yes, the people who poorly made Twilight) have embarked on something new... and it holds some serious promise. Check it out! http://www.slashfilm.com/2008/11/20/astro-boy-teaser-trailer/

You know you love me
XOXO

Boyfriend

I got flowers last night - yipee!

Helpful Tool!

Okay - so!

I'm wandering around the internet (nap went out the window when the landlady starting banging away the ice on her steps), and I found a very cool tool.

http://www.fitwatch.com/database/analyzer.php

This is a recipe analyzer. Super cool! You just put in the details of whatever it is you're making, and it gives you the nutritional info. Me likey!

I love finding new cool stuff!

Thank goodness it's sunny here! Ha ha Winnipeg!

Okay - I admit it. The title is purely for Tina, but still.... it's a little funny. Or at least I think so.

So Tina is gone, Jen U is gone, Jen V isn't answering her phone, Adam is at a party and my family is partying. I'm home. Alone. Enjoying..... my own head (?). lol

Well, good news is I am starting to feel a little bit better. I have energy when I wake up in the morning (yipee!) but it quickly fades when I do stuff. I had energy when I got this morning, but I did a little light cleaning, so now I'm pooped out. I am contemplating a nap..... The frustrating part is that I am ready to be better RIGHT NOW dammit. Argh! I want to do things! I want to clean things! I want to go places and celebrate holidays! I want to move my body in the form of exercise! Not ready for that stuff yet, darn it.

As Adam has pointed out, I'm going to have to start with walking. First, I'll have to try very short walks, to see how the dizziness goes. But once I start, I hope to feel well enough to do it every day. Even if it's only ten minutes.... my body (and sanity) need it. I think my poor little ego id going to take a hit though: I think instead of pushing I will have to get up to 30 minutes of walking every day, for a few weeks, before I start the jogging process. Nothing makes me feel lazier. LOL I am just picturing myself after the first few walks.... I'll need a nap. Oh my......

On another note, I've remembered an ϋber fun thing to add to my list of summer excellency.... skinny-dipping!! I really can not wait for that. Soooo much fun!

Thinking of attempting to bake cookies today.... post-nap.

Christmas With The Kranks - BAD movie. Tried last night. Stu-pid!

I was picking on Adam last night about the whole 'Happily ever After' stuff. Poor guy. hehe I think I may just let him percolate for a little while instead of stirring pot anymore. (he - did that analogy work? Cool!)

Anyway.... you know you love me...
XOXO

Watch This!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1h5UBeQcgjs

It's too funny!

Oy-vay!

What a night last night was!

The evening was going so well. nearly perfect. Adam played wheelchair rugby, I dropped in with treats for him and his co-workers, and then we chilled on the coach at home.

But when we got back to his place, i was simply flossing my teeth (and looking forward to curling up in his arms!) when the floss got stuck (REALLY stuck). So I tried to take another piece of floss and get it out 9what else are you supposed to do? I was even yanking and it wouldn't budge). long story short, I snipped it short so I wouldn't choke on it and went to bed. And I was so mad! It's getting increasinly hard to deal with everything, and I feel horrible every time I get mad, or upset and too sad because I know it stresses Adam out. And he deserves better. But last night I was so angry. I think I hit my limit, I couldn't handle it anymore. It was very upsetting.

So I ended up at the dentist this morning. And he couldn't believe how stuck it was! He thought he might have to drill, but didn't need to, thank goodness. After he said that word i started shaking and nearly crying (I can't handle the dentist anymore, not since the '06 incident). But he froze two parts of my mouth, wedged and pried apart my teeth (ouch) and got the floss out. all 3 inches of it!

No wonder!

But then I also managed to get my hair cut, and styled (it's losing the style now, but I still like it). I think I found a nice place I would like to continue to go. The stylist's name is Amy, and she was wonderful! (see link here http://www.lifesalonspa.com/hair_artists_halifax.shtml ) I think I will see her again for sure. And they started with a scalp massage.... yay!

And I managed to get the one other thing I need for Adam's gift. Yipee! I k now he's going to love it. I can't wait!

you know you love me
XOXO

P.

Trying Day....

Hmmm.... today is a tough day. Yesterday went really well. I even managed to get out and accomplish a little Christmas related stuff for Adam. Today I am paying for it. I'm absolutely wiped out, and trying my best to energize up before he gets here after work, although I'm not sure I'll be able to. *SIGH*

On the bright side: my kitchen may have taken 2 days to get through the dishes (well, almost through them all) but it's nearly done. Baby steps.

I wrapped a present for Adam last night, and put it under my craft-y tree. I think it looks cute. And I hope he loves it as much as I love giving it to him. (fingers crossed)

Started thinking about the summer and making plans. I think it's my way of coping with being stuck doing nothing right now. But here's the list:

- Camping May long weekend
- Kayak camping trip
- Tidal bore
- Class reunion
- Golf at least once every 2 weeks with my Hun (he deserves to do what he enjoys)

Adams planning to vacation in BC with Travis at some point, but other than that.... I'm really hoping to take advantage of the summer this year.I haven't had a summer away from a base since I joined the military. I will really enjoy it.

All this combined with my "Fitness after Illness" spree, and life will be wonderfully enjoyed!

Not to mention we will be having our 1 year anniversary! Yay!

P

New Mission In Life

Hmmmm... so.

Sick again. Pretty sure it's Bell's Palsy.... again. Sucks!!!!!!!! The odds of this happening are so slim.... well - my mom always said I was special! LOL

Ok ok, I'm trying to keep a light attitude towards the whole thing. Adam has been great and wonderful and awesome, and has let me cry on his shoulder I don't know how many times. In return, I'm trying to not live in a pity party. Missing all the holiday fun sucks though. Birthdays, Xmas parties, etc.... I don't like it at all. I can't even go Xmas shopping! So annoying.

So new mission in life: get healthy! Stay healthy! Get fit again (and better)! (Okay, well, the last one is a constant battle, but STILL!)

My Class B contract is up 7 Mar 08. Donna (my supervisor) has been (with lack of reason or authority) holding my contract renewal over my head, making it very clear that she's not pleased with how sick I've been this fall. Ofcourse if confronted she would rearrange any statement she's made, but that's just her saving face. Anyways......

I won't be renewing my contract if/when it gets offered. I was just speaking to the Fd Amb and let them know that I was sick (again) and that I won't be renewing my contract. They seemed more than fine with it (gotta love Angie!). I can work my one night a week, lend an extra hand when the office needs it, and let my body recooperate. I need a break. so unemployment it is. My body can't heal if I don't give it a chance. My immune system and everything needs to get ack ontrack where it should be. And I need to be able to move again. Fitness and health will be my main concerns.

So it occured to me last night that perhaps this blog wouold be an excellent way to track my progress. I can post pictures, food diaries, fitness goals and acheivemants, even recipes. At that point though, I think I may have to share this site. LOL - To the best of my knowledge no one reads this. Although I wouldn't be surprised if Adam had found it by now. Which is fine. he can read it. But right now I'm not ready to share with anyone else.

Anyway.... back to what I was saying. It might be cool to do an online health diary. I always thought that i could do way better if I had a magazine or something following me, so maybe I can create my own tracker. Why not?

Ooooh! AND... last night I think I FINALLY decided on curtain colors for my living room and two bedrooms. Yay! Blue and white for the living room, purple and pick for my room, and red and orange for the larger room. Yayz! I'm very excited to get them now. Boxing day sales it is! Woohoo!

Anyway.... in Gossip Girl style...

You know you love me.... XOXO

Twilight...... slightly bothered

Okay, so something is bothering me about the movie.

In all the behind-the-scenes stuff, there is a shot of Emmett saying to Edward , over the roof of a car: "It's not worth it, Edward. She's not one of us."

And it's not in the movie.

That bugs me. And I'm pretty sure it even made it into the trailors. Hmph.

Inconsistant editing..... so classy.

I noticed when I was watching Monster-In-Law the other day that when JLo is supposed to be watching a scary movie, the camera pans around to the back of the couch to show a blank screen.

lol

hollywood!

Oh - and have I mentioned how in love I am with my boyfriend? So very very in love. yeah yeah - I know. Gag. But seriously - he's a real-life Prince Charming.

And he's quickly becoming my best friend.

Yay! (Insert hart here)

So tired....

Twilight

Well. Twilight was...... sooo bad! But soooo cheesy and corny that I had to love it. It seems as though the director took random important scenes from the book, and just filmed them, and put them on reel, one after the other. I still loved it though.

And I also loved the fact that Tina, Jen, Jenny and Adam were there. I held Adam's/Tina's hand the whole time. I was so excited!

Emotional week should slow down now... no more PMS! Argh! Adam is soo sweet, even when I'm being difficult. I am so lucky to have him. he is a shining star. So hopefully I won't feel homicidal at work next week....

And we got snow! A whole lot of it! Yay!

Oh - and Twilight starts tonight. Thank God. Or I'd be plotting someone's "accident" that would keep them away from work until my contract.

Twilight premiers Thursday night at 10pm!

Yay! I havebeen waiting months for this. Months! I'm so glad it's finally arrived. And we have tickets! Great!

Alice left this morning - makes me a litle sad to see her go. But I know how she's feeling, b.c I've been there, so I'm very proud of her for not living life in a "safe" way. She deserves better than that.

And from my last post, let me just say - I love Adam more and more every day. Which I didn't think was possible. I love him and I have never been happier in my life.

Now work.... ugh. Just get through today and then tomorrow, then repeat. Why do I feel as though work has sucked the life out of me? Oh yeah - it has.

But then, at the end of the day, there's Adam. And I smile.

A Whole New World, A Whole New Blog

Hello Internet World!

So as of 2 days ago, the US has a new President. Way to turn over a new leaf! I'm not sure how I feel about the whole thing. I can appreciate what it represents for the world though, and for North American society.

Wow.

Although, as much as I'm unsure of my opinion on the President-Elect, I find it much easier than having to choose a PM, here in Canada, last month. Seriously... what the deuce! Then again, Peter MacKay is still around, so at least there is something nice to look at on CPAC.

I also turned 28 last week. It's funny how turning 27 completely freaked me out, but 28 didn't. I think it's in large part due to Adam. Having him in my life is amazing. He is amazing. But it's also because I am more certain of who I am now. I know what I want (or more specifically, what I don't want) and I know what my values are.

Things I don't know: I still don't know how to confront people. At all.

Situation:

My friend, one of my very best friends (of years and major life events) was to join me and friends last week for my birthday. I was looking forward to the rest of my friends meeting her (she lives 2 hours away) and more importantly, introducing her to my beau. I was thrilled to see her.

So on my birthday everyone is to meet at the Restaurant for dinner at 6 pm. Turns out we couldn't get a table (foolish no-reservations reservations-required restaurants). So I send everyone else to another restaurant, and I stay with Adam to wait outside in the cold. After about 20 minutes I call her husband to get her new cellphone number. Turns out she's home, 2 hours away. She never left and she's not coming. She's sick. She tried to call me (at about 4pm, right after I had tried to reach her husband) and thinks that excuses it.

What bothers me: she waited to try to tell me instead of taking the two minutes to call earlier in the day to tell me she was sipping out on my birthday. It killed me. I was so upset that I didn't eat dinner, and cancelled the bowling that we were going to do. I know it sounds juvenile, but it really felt like a betrayal.

And I decide to get over it. adam and I have been wanting to go to the Valley to show him where I grew up and fianlly introduce him to them (and see the kids - I miss them so much!), and she calls me at the last minute to tell me it's not okay to come down. Her hubby needs to study (he's in school right now).

I get needing to study, but it ruined my weekend AGAIN. And hurt my feelings. Adam and I took vacation days on Monday, turned down other invitations and made other plans in the area all based on us going down to see them.

It ticks me off and I don't have the backbone to say anything to her.

My lesson for the next year, to learn how to speak my mind when my own emotions are involved. Wish me luck.

Oh well, on the bright side... TGIF!! (sleeping tomorrow - yay!)