So tomorrow is the big day - I get my surgery. It's all very exciting, and I'm really excited to be having it happen. That said, I'm getting nervous - I don't want to not wake up. I know it will be fine, but my tummy still has butterflies in it. I'm sure it's only natural, but seriously - I like being in control of going to sleep and waking up. Handing that power over to someone else isn't easy. And I'm nothing, if not a control freak.

I really am looking forward to having it done. I was looking online at some statistics and the research is quite good for successful pregnancies after this (not sure what it's called, but let's just say that my BabyMaker is being upgraded!).

I don't get to have water or anything after midnight tonight, and if you know me well you know I hate not having my water bottle in hand. I can handle not eating, that's simple, but not being able to drink is driving me crazy before it even happens.

I keep trying to look at it from a clinical point of view, but I can't seem to detach myself enough to do it. If it were anyone but me (or Adam) it would be easy, but it's not. I know how it all works, but that doesn't seem to matter to the butterflies. The butterflies have a mind of their own. It's like someone just disturbed their nest - their super active and on edge right now!

Oh butterflies - will you let me sleep tonight?

Only 5 months left as of today! I'm so happy and excited I can't stand it! It's wonderful :)

Tonight - went to the gym, made blueberry muffins, did my taxes (by myself!) and I'm going to get to bed at a decent time - who would have thunk it?

So after the sleep-deprived weekend I had, it's off to bed I go. Isn't that nice!

I'm a nursing student - here's proof!

Seriously?!

Hey all, So I know I don't write on here much lately, and when I do it's because I have something to say. Well, this time is no different, I have something to say.

While reading a friend's blog this week, she noted that this is Women's History Month. Rockin'! Cool. I'm down with that. Well, a co-worker, who is aware of political views (which I don't discuss with many, but suffice to say I am liberal on many fronts, but still conservative on a few) decided to share something with me. And when I looked into it, I was disgusted. THIS is ridiculous! Just look through their material, and what they stand for! How outrageous is that. Now, I myself am all for a woman staying home, or working, or joining the freaking circus, but this blew my mind. What's the point of gender equality if they want us to live within constraints?

1. Abortion? That's none of their business. Or yours. Or mine.
2. Gay rights? Uh.... if color doesn't make a person less entitled, why would gender?
3. Anti-government funded childcare? Get over yourself! It's not a conspiracy to monitor and develop your children, it's a way to help families afford to work to provide more opportunities for their children. Jeesh!

I find their ideals offensive. I appreciate the history and struggles of women, but I live in a time where we have choices. I don't know what year they are living in....or trying to re-create. So, here it is:


My name is Pam. I am a woman. And I support other women in whatever I can. Unless it means stripping them of their rights and freedoms, whether it be by law or social convention. You should be ashamed of yourselves!

Like the picture? Me too. And I love the 50s sense of style and community, but not the social conventions that ruled women's lives. And you know what? I'm allowed to think that way AND express it. No thanks to the Real Women of Canada.