Attention Please

While I appreciate that everyone gets excited about babies, please stop asking if I'm pregnant or when we intend to start a family.

It's a private matter between a husband and a wife, and if there's something we want to share with you, we will. Otherwise, don't think it's your business, because it's not. I will lie to you, until I decide not to, no matter the circumstance.

In my opinion it is never okay to ask someone that question. Ever.

Well, it happened. We got married. I'm a married woman - a Mrs!

We are very happy - more happy than I ever thought possible. We are in love, and in the midst of wonderful life together.

I will now be taking an official hiatus from this blog. I may take another turn at it later on, or I may create a more private one. I'm not sure. No matter what the case, rest assured, this story ends with -

Happily Ever After

I'm getting married today!

It's finally here!

Yay!

The end is nigh...

Working weekend again - but this time it's working for us instead of school!

Saturday was my first day off after working 26 days straight... and we spend the day loading the moving truck! I was zonked by the time bedtime came around. Tonight is priming to paint. And we are priming everything we painted. Oh joy! Well - it's not too bad - except for the stupid Tattoo practice - I'm sick of bagpipes.

I also got to run away to Erin's shower today - so nice! It was nice to meet some new people (I knew nobody but her) and I got to see her new place too. As it turns out, Adam and I are going to stay with her a couple of nights this week while we're homeless.

So - green is primed. Brown is primed. Kitchen is taped. And Adam avoided a near-electrocution. All-in-all - good weekend! I can't wait for Friday though - sleep sleep sleep. Oh - and lounge. I'm not unpacking, cleaning, painting or moving. I'm having a day off.

Only 1 month and 25 days until I get married!

Feels like I'm going to eat my way through Midol today and tomorrow - and hate every minute of it.

Ick.

Feelin' good!

I'm done my first clinical placement! Wahoo! And we're loading our stuff this weekend - wahoo! And we're moving away from the STUPID Nova Scotia International Tattoo - DOUBLE WOOHOO!!!

Also - caught up to the end of Supernatural last night - it was awesome. I really think that they should leave it there - it was a good ending. Something bugged me though - the prophet was supposedly God? That doesn't make sense because Dean's necklace didn't glow around him. But whatever - it was awesome. And Death kicked some arse too!

Getting married in 1 month and 29 days! Holy crow! NOW there's stuff to do - as soon as we get through the move it will be wedding wedding wedding. So exciting!!!!!!! And we booked our honeymoon resort (going to an awesome resort in PEI that has everything).

Year 1 of 3 done for school - so pleased!

Batter up!

Wow - look at those curve balls!

There's been a few this past week and a half.

My Aunt Shirley passed, and the funeral was Monday and I couldn't go because I had to be at clinical.

Training 4 new people at work. People who do not have professional confidence (or much work experience). Nice people, but not the easiest to train.

Said good-bye to Jenn tonight. It was really hard. But then she left her purse! Silly gal... all is fine now though.

Can't got to Mike and Mindy's wedding - horrible. I wanted so much to be there.

And today is day 19 of 25 working straight. I need a break.

So - batter up! I'll battle what else the week throws, but I hope it's flowers instead of curve balls!

Worn Out

I am so very happy with my life. I love where I've ended up, and i couldn't ask for a better partner to go through it with.

But oh my! I'm so worn out. Self-induced,, as it may be. I'm pooped. Working, clinical, moving, wedding, and family affairs/news/changes. All in one month. Oy vey!

Off to sleep I go. A good slumber it will be!

Good-bye and God Bless Aunt Shirley

We found out last night that my Aunt Shirley died the night before last. The wake is on Sunday and the funeral is on Monday and I can't go to either because I have to be in clinical, and I'm not allowed to miss time. It completely sucks. I'm not sure what to say to Dad, or Maxine or anyone.

Shirley was the first aunt (Dad's sister) to pass. I guess it will start happening more and more now that we're at that age. I guess it's the circle of life or some crap like that. Their generation is getting older, just like we are.

Yes. I guess life is changing.

Life, it is a-changin'.

In fact, a lot of things are changing. The last few months have seen a large transition in my life. There are some things I've considered doing but haven't been able to (for various reasons), but I'm starting to feel like I'm ready. Ready to get ready for what comes next, and allow myself to let go of whatever needs to be left behind in the transition.

For example, I'm ready to let go of some stuff. When we move (oh yeah - we're moving BTW) I don't want to take everything with me. We have too much stuff, and I'm ready to let go of some of that dead weight. If it doesn't have a place of its own in the new place, I don't want it.

And guilt. That's been done before....way too much.

And the need to please. I've been told about that one by my friends way too much.

And the need to help. Why do I always have to be the person who needs to help the people I know. And it doesn't even have to be something big or important, but it is just stuff I don't have the energy for.

I don't know what brought on the sudden need to change things. Maybe it's getting married (in 2 months and 16 days!!!!) or maybe it's the change in career, or the fast-approaching , but whatever it is, I think it's been coming for awhile.

Oh yeah - and I need to start standing up for myself more. With everyone. I waste too much energy dealing with people in my head - I need to do something more that will give me some piece of mind. I'm not sure if people even realize how they talk to me, or how they treat me. But when I notice, I get upset, and then have to talk to Adam until I feel better, and it's just to much pressure.

And hey - I put enough pressure on myself. You know, with working fulltime, school, learning to care for people in school (very taxing BTW), planning a wedding, being a good fiancé/sister/friend/daughter/DIL/SIL/aunt, moving, and oh yeah - trying to find a spare few hours every so often for me. Yeah... that pressure.

But heck - I love having goals, and things to acheive in my life. I' m glad I'm not stuck in a rut, like I was a few years ago. I'm happy with the choices I've made, and the schedule I've set up. Sometimes, when I'm telling people that I don't have a spare weekend until September, it's because I'm bragging while they think I'm complaining (okay - a little complaint in the brag, but you get the picture). I love my life. I just have be okay with letting my choices take hold.

And oh yeah - I'm getting married in 77 days!

Hey all!

So Adam brought up a good point this morning - I shouldn't let my last entry be about going in for surgery - it looks dire. So here you go!

I'm not sure if I'm done blogging, but for right now I don't have anything I want to share with the world at large.

So here you go - another post for the interim. It's been grand, it's been fun. I'll let you know if I decide to go on.

Bye!

So tomorrow is the big day - I get my surgery. It's all very exciting, and I'm really excited to be having it happen. That said, I'm getting nervous - I don't want to not wake up. I know it will be fine, but my tummy still has butterflies in it. I'm sure it's only natural, but seriously - I like being in control of going to sleep and waking up. Handing that power over to someone else isn't easy. And I'm nothing, if not a control freak.

I really am looking forward to having it done. I was looking online at some statistics and the research is quite good for successful pregnancies after this (not sure what it's called, but let's just say that my BabyMaker is being upgraded!).

I don't get to have water or anything after midnight tonight, and if you know me well you know I hate not having my water bottle in hand. I can handle not eating, that's simple, but not being able to drink is driving me crazy before it even happens.

I keep trying to look at it from a clinical point of view, but I can't seem to detach myself enough to do it. If it were anyone but me (or Adam) it would be easy, but it's not. I know how it all works, but that doesn't seem to matter to the butterflies. The butterflies have a mind of their own. It's like someone just disturbed their nest - their super active and on edge right now!

Oh butterflies - will you let me sleep tonight?

Only 5 months left as of today! I'm so happy and excited I can't stand it! It's wonderful :)

Tonight - went to the gym, made blueberry muffins, did my taxes (by myself!) and I'm going to get to bed at a decent time - who would have thunk it?

So after the sleep-deprived weekend I had, it's off to bed I go. Isn't that nice!

I'm a nursing student - here's proof!

Seriously?!

Hey all, So I know I don't write on here much lately, and when I do it's because I have something to say. Well, this time is no different, I have something to say.

While reading a friend's blog this week, she noted that this is Women's History Month. Rockin'! Cool. I'm down with that. Well, a co-worker, who is aware of political views (which I don't discuss with many, but suffice to say I am liberal on many fronts, but still conservative on a few) decided to share something with me. And when I looked into it, I was disgusted. THIS is ridiculous! Just look through their material, and what they stand for! How outrageous is that. Now, I myself am all for a woman staying home, or working, or joining the freaking circus, but this blew my mind. What's the point of gender equality if they want us to live within constraints?

1. Abortion? That's none of their business. Or yours. Or mine.
2. Gay rights? Uh.... if color doesn't make a person less entitled, why would gender?
3. Anti-government funded childcare? Get over yourself! It's not a conspiracy to monitor and develop your children, it's a way to help families afford to work to provide more opportunities for their children. Jeesh!

I find their ideals offensive. I appreciate the history and struggles of women, but I live in a time where we have choices. I don't know what year they are living in....or trying to re-create. So, here it is:


My name is Pam. I am a woman. And I support other women in whatever I can. Unless it means stripping them of their rights and freedoms, whether it be by law or social convention. You should be ashamed of yourselves!

Like the picture? Me too. And I love the 50s sense of style and community, but not the social conventions that ruled women's lives. And you know what? I'm allowed to think that way AND express it. No thanks to the Real Women of Canada.

That's why it's OUR game.

So much is going on in the world!

Did anyone catch the opening ceremony for the Olympics???? It was awesome! The orcas were, by far, my favorite part. How wonderful! It looked like they were right there in the stadium!

Poor Georgia - my heart broke for them.

School is starting to take over my world again. School and the gym. I've been in hibernation mode for the last few weeks, and it looks likely to continue until April or so. I know that sounds like a long time, but by the time my midterms are over in mid march, it'll be time for my surgery which requires recovery time. So I won't be up for too much socializing.

But then it's spring! So that's a great thing :)

Life is throwing some curve balls my way right now. I hate it when that happens. Makes me want to hibernate.

So far I am loving Zumba class, and I intend to continue for as long as I can. It's fun!

We've gotten back a bunch of the RSVPs (hint hint people). One one decline to date, so that's good :)

GTG!

~P

Thank you Tina.
You're the best!

This is the 4th day in a row I've woken up with a headache - I wish I knew why. I'm sure it doesn't help that I haven't been getting enough sleep, but it still isn't fun.

Goal for the week - get enough sleep. At least one night of 9.5 hours. That would be lovely!

I finished up my First Aid & CPR over the weekend. The guy who was teaching it was foolish and didn't know what he was talking about. Thank goodness Erin was there to keep him line because I didn't want to be the one to correct him. In fact, I like having Erin around - she's a lot like me! And there aren't enough people like us out there. IF there was, there wouldn't be so much drama in life.

That being said, I've recently cut back (WAY back) on drama in my life, and I feel like I'm almost at a place where I can recover from it (somewhat like an open wound, I suppose). I'm going to hold onto this lovely solitude I've been building up lately. I'll soon be focused enough to lead a well-organized and routine week, which would be even lovelier.

Tonight sounds like a good night for an early bedtime. If only that would happen. LOL I have to go home, cook supper, go to the gym, study and get ready for tomorrow. Not to mention all the other things that go along with a regular Monday evening. I'm very much looking forward to Saturday! I'm already on day 8 of work (essentially) and I'm exhausted!